The Peaceful Side of Me

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First of all, allow me to congratulate you for becoming so meaningful in my life. Now you are just like a piece of Big Mac in the last minutes of my lunch time which I really want to chew very hard. You totally own my full attention. I need to tell you something, I have collected many courage until I can finally arrive to this point, the point when I need to embarrass myself with writing a pointless story (well, actually it won’t, if only you understand English) that I need to exclusively make only to express how thankful I am for being coached by a person like you on how to hold the desire of saying any direct offensive words or gestures which, of course, a person like you will not be able to accept once I produce it. I feel sorry to myself, but this is the only way I can substitute my desire of doing such things.  

I have been trying to understand the fact that we are coming from two different sources that would also certainly distinguish and explain the gap between us in the end of the day. I have been trying to understand that coming all the way from a wrecked place to a concrete jungle is not an easy task for you to do alone. Just to make you noticed, I have tried to understand you up to that point with all of my innocent sincerity.

I have been trying to swallow everything and not giving a single comment on things I do not like, so that you can just keep saying and doing things you like without feeling any hesitation at all. It was, at first, totally acceptable for me to do all those things at once, since I was thinking that you will do the same thing for me. But I see you are going slightly off limits and start feeding me back with your ignorant jokes instead.

Talking about the way we contextualize the logic that each of us possess towards the daily interaction, of course I could not blame you for only having such a low capability of processing. I know that it is just in the right portion you can possibly contain. Moreover, I guess you do not really need it to be any higher too, because the universe seems to conspire that you are only allowed to interact with those who have same level of capability so you can have a solid pathetic team forever. See, I am still putting my best effort to understand you up to that point.

I do not want to be a person who likes to take things seriously, but this time I really need to empower you to experience the next level of life and let you see yourself from my point of view, so you won’t be surprised if one of these days you will have people like me (or worse) shouting words that might make your mind blows right at your beautiful face, because you are just magnificent with every single flaws you have.

I choose this way because I think this is the best way for both of us to really engage with each other. I do not want to show my offensive manner to you, because it will waste much of energy only to talk to a person like you. Yet, I am sure you will not be feeling offended anyway, because you will not give a single damn to the words I made due to the incapability of your brain. So please understand it.

Those are my messages to you. I do not expect you to understand, since I do not want you to get tired only to understand them. I know you need to allocate your energy as much as possible for your efforts on reducing the peer pressure that you could not barely handle, so do not feel burdened. I will do my best to always understand.