Some Closure in 2015

2015 was the year that witnessed my step up into a whole new level of life. The year full of risks, trials, disappointment, and courage all came together in one package. Many good things happened to me along the year of 2015, at least those are enough to embrace the idea of telling less cheerful narratives that also happened during the year.   

As I said before, 2015 had me learnt bunch of life lessons which I had not had in the other years way before that. The real story of 2015 for me began in approximately 6 to 7 months before the end of the year. I remembered how those big chances I had could just easily slide away to the other hand if only I was not being insane at that time. For the first time in my life, I blatantly ignored the risks which could potentially damage things I’ve built at that moment. If I was not being like that, I would never be here right now, telling stories to people who said that they’re not lucky enough because they could not, maybe ever, have those awesome things I had experienced during the year.

2015 was also a closure for some things in my life. First of all, I stopped over panicking since I learnt how to value more on living at the present time. I eventually realized that the time and the energy I had wasted for thinking of the uncertain things were only allowing me to spread out negative vibe to other people around me. I did not want that to happen any longer, so I stopped.

Second of all, I stopped being a careless Indonesian citizen and started to put some more attention to know how my country really is. By the time I returned to Indonesia last December, I realized that I would always bear more responsibility to explain and present my own country in a correct way. If my country did wrong, I should be able to explain it why my country did so in a way that didn’t sound like a joke nor an academic blunder. And if my country did something good, I should also be able to explain it in the same manner that would make them believe that I was also part of the success.

Last of all, I stopped using my anger to express disappointment towards things that didn’t go my way. I learnt how to just leave minor traffic clashes without swearing or giving some unfriendly gestures. I learnt to be more selective on countering the arguments. And last but not least, I learnt how to forgive and let go of things that might be even the most irritating event that ever happened in 2015. I’d let them go away, and I felt better instantly afterwards.

2016 is just beginning, and I am working for the betterment.

Best Regards,

Iqbal Dwiharianto