THE STORY OF A DREAM

ANOTHER DAY OF NOTHING

The intention I had set the other night turns out to be nothing (again). I wish today my brain will start flowing some of good ideas which could possibly lead me to finish one or two procrastinated tasks, so I could breathe freely in the days ahead. Again, everything that is set on the plan does not go as well as what is expected. Some says it might be just good to cut some slack and just forget the things you are in charge for in about a little while.

Remember the old days when I think that was a good advice to take. But seriously, a person like me would take too much time only for hanging myself out on Youtube for hours and say, “I think I need some more” and some of the “I promise, this is the last one..and I’ll go to that immediately.” That is what happened everytime I become too tolerant with myself.

Yet, these days I have been also trying to spend most of my “productive” time to read some of the students essay published in e-ir.info, it’s a highly recommended site for you guys who like to read bunch of good articles and essays related with almost every topics covered in the course of international relations. So guys, you should check it out! (endorsement-free).

I sometime really wish that this life is all about doing things you like and having unlimited time to understand them without feeling afraid of being failed on anything I wanted to be. But then I think human ambition was made for us to realize that there is a right place for the right person, and to get there, we have to struggle for it. So then I write a new entry on my rusty blog (which I left for couple of weeks with completely nothing, and I am so sorry for that!), and share a story!

Human and Building, both are competing with each kinds.
(Pict. IDH)

HUNGRY FOR WORDS

I am currently so excited with writing. I don’t really care what that would be, I just really want to write things down. Remember the very first post I made for this blog, I said I wanted to be a journalist. For God sake, I am now 21 years old. Sometime I just want to ask my mom for an advice on when I should stop dreaming about what I will become and start doing it. In the age of 21, the age when you’re technically legal to do anything your parents used to forbid you to do, you will no longer thinking about what you want to be instead of start acting as it. With that being said, I do the very least thing a journalist should do which is telling his own personal life’s story.

Well, I actually write more serious things. I am always inspired with young people who already have their writings published just like in the previous site I mentioned, most of the time those people are undergraduate students just like me. But I am always impressed with the way they narrate and the essays in a way that, for me, is just magnificent. Moreover, I always get jealous everytime I see the references the cited for the essays because I was like, “geez, I wish I was a total nerd like these people.”

The problem I currently encounter is that, it is difficult to gain confidence! The confidence that will make you able to flawlessly defend the thesis and arguments you cited on it. I try to find out the way to solve this problem, and some of my good and supportive friends say that it is because I have not enough observations and data for me to hold, therefore I feel insecure about it. Well, I agree to that. Maybe that’s the problem that I need to work on. Thanks guys!


COME WITH SOME GOOD OUTPUTS!

I certainly realize that in the last entry before this one, I was quite immature as a blogger in a sense that I present something you guys would hardly understand. Maybe if there is something you could understand is the part where I was swearing and being sarcastic. I was not in a cheerful mood at the time I wrote that, and I thought that was the only way that I could transfer all of my emotional feeling without hurting any feelings directly.

I am so sorry for that! And then, I made a promise to myself that everytime I write an entry, I have to be able to come out with some sort of conclusion which I hope you guys can consider it as a form of good output from my story, and so you can also make it as a good input for you guys as the readers. In this very story, I would come out with some values that you can probably think about. First, I totally find it better to do something else that has a good value equivalent with being able to finish our assignments rather than just spending hours for watching unnecessary stuffs when we really are not in the mood of doing them. Find something that is fun. In my case, I like writing, so I write things that are less stressful but still useful.

Second, let us take our dream more seriously. This is might be the time when we should start acting as what we wanted to be. I mean, this is probably the only chance to make something we like as our primary life in the future. You guys like writing and wanted to be a journalist? Start to read and write a lot. You guys like drawing and wanted to be an artist? Go ahead drawing as much as you can before the corporate suit kills your time for doing it. Do not care about how the results will be, just keep doing it! We’ll figure out the solutions for every problems we have as we consistently get better. 


Have a good one, people! :)